sadness, for real

So surprising how opaque.
Fear
of the dark.
Fear
of consuming.
So surprising how it quakes.
Sick
in my middle
Sick
of consuming.
So surprising to feel
Sadness, for real.

I lend out My Soul

Looking back,
My heart has hands
To carry to crawl
To you.
I'd stop to pick up every crumb
In the wide expanse between us
But looking back
A scarecrow lies in the grass
And the birds will come
Looking Back
Is not what I do
I lend out my soul
And get none of you.

A Lovenote for the Paperclip

I love you
For being who you are.
There is no need
To draw out your lines,
Your figure,
Strength and style,
Though you have all of these
And more.
There is no matter of purpose,
Nor of any benefit to me.
I love you for being;
I love you for existing,
At all.

Reach

I cannot reach my hands
I look down at the tips of me
I look down at the ends
but all remains what's left behind
a tricking of the light
They must be mine
These things,
that trail behind
because I watch the ghost
reach out
and see where skin and black
are not

Shadow's Tail

walking along the sun
my shadow rises from me.
the sun glancing over my shoulder
pulls at slender fingers;
breathing between the spaces.
I see the silhouette
of a slung bag
and a dark sweep
across my shoulders.
Looking up at my shadow
I wind back to the embarking,
and wonder if it shouldn't
be the other way around?

A Sick House

I never knew the taste of home
could taste so much of vomit
in my throat.
I never knew that missing it,
could make my heart lose sleep.
swimming to get back,
reaching to get back;
I retch at the hole inside me,
burning at the whisps
of things left behind.
I never knew the taste of home
Could make myself so small;
and all that's left is
black and soft.
It chokes me with revulsion.