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Thursday, December 8, 2011

Jumping Dover


The white cliffs in the sky,
Like jumping Dover
I brush past crags and falls
to see what sleeps
on the other side.
These massifs are no
least immense,
no more of rock,
than these children
we scrape our knuckles on;
heights made from mist
I search out footholds
in the rolling white
wistful cliffs.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Dust Could Never Cover You

This rain we take to be
Stone's dew,
Is never said
To hold my own.
For you I shed it gladly,
And with long fingers
Create the tracks
Of dust,
I've stored for --
This long long time.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Stir


The sound of thunder scares
Some recognition from the soul;
Excitement in the wonder
Of what they're doing there,
Among the gods of flashes
And the gods of pounding tins;
One may hear above the wind,
The sounds of deep within.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

These Lessons


These lessons we learn
Are counted,
In not so many strokes.
We think to be wiser,
We think to be grown.
But the winds will blow,
And the clouds will cover.
And we will continue to gaze
On the memory of stars,
Long ghosts.
Which will continue to shine
For our children.
Who will smile upon them
And imagine that they are new,
And meant for them.
Not imagining the black void;
Not understanding,
The warm breezes of a storm.

Monday, September 26, 2011

sadness, for real

So surprising how opaque.
Fear
of the dark.
Fear
of consuming.
So surprising how it quakes.
Sick
in my middle
Sick
of consuming.
So surprising to feel
Sadness, for real.

I lend out My Soul


Looking back,
My heart has hands
To carry to crawl
To you.
I'd stop to pick up every crumb
In the wide expanse between us
But looking back
A scarecrow lies in the grass
And the birds will come
Looking Back
Is not what I do
I lend out my soul
And get none of you.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

A Lovenote for the Paperclip


I love you
For being who you are.
There is no need
To draw out your lines,
Your figure,
Strength and style,
Though you have all of these
And more.
There is no matter of purpose,
Nor of any benefit to me.
I love you for being;
I love you for existing,
At all.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Reach


I cannot reach my hands
I look down at the tips of me
I look down at the ends
but all remains what's left behind
a tricking of the light
They must be mine
These things,
that trail behind
because I watch the ghost
reach out
and see where skin and black
are not

Shadow's Tail


walking along the sun
my shadow rises from me.
the sun glancing over my shoulder
pulls at slender fingers;
breathing between the spaces.
I see the silhouette
of a slung bag
and a dark sweep
across my shoulders.
Looking up at my shadow
I wind back to the embarking,
and wonder if it shouldn't
be the other way around?

Thursday, September 15, 2011

A Sick House



I never knew the taste of home
could taste so much of vomit
in my throat.
I never knew that missing it,
could make my heart lose sleep.
swimming to get back,
reaching to get back;
I retch at the hole inside me,
burning at the whisps
of things left behind.
I never knew the taste of home
Could make myself so small;
and all that's left is
black and soft.
It chokes me with revulsion.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

A Dress Called Poet


This closet is lined
with walls with lines,
So quiet,
I press them in my palm.
so quiet i take them with me.
A dress i wear,
beneath the Homespun truth;
And no one dares to breathe
the Name;
so quiet.
Inside my dreams these walls are white,
and smoke curls up my collar;
the poet burning up my skin,
her ashes at my feet.

Friday, June 10, 2011

The Birds I've Burned

These winter branches are too thin to hold the birds I've burned.


Their soft white wings are singed with smoke like all my memories old.

I open up my ears to flocks of wings never returned.


The woodsman kisses blade to bark with all the stripes I've earned,

We stand in line, wait quietly, while he takes our daily toll.

These winter branches are too thin to hold the birds I've burned.


The whistle wind holds no songs, in all the sounds I've learned.

My limbs despise their burden light; they strangle empty hold.

I open up my ears to flocks of wings never returned.


My smiling faces once with feathers now with bones discerned

The golden new and silver old are given to smoke; sold.

These winter branches are too thin to hold the birds I've burned.


The warm days in dreams conjured; now morning has adjourned.

Now sheltered in the skeleton of branches bare and bold,

I open up my ears to flocks of wings never returned.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

May I

Sister may I

Take two big steps.

May I wear your clothes,

Just the ones

You don't really use

Anymore.

Sister may I

Take a run through the forest,

Take your room;

Now that you've grown

You don't really need it

Anymore.

Sister may I

Take two steps back,

May I run

Back to the start.

Sister,

May I touch you?

May I feel your hand?

Now that you've grown

You're not really there

Anymore.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Snore

Lying in the dark

I imagine the sea

Several hundred miles out.

And it imagines me

Here.

The sound drifts to me,

Like sleep clouds over.

Breathe in,

The sea rolls it's wave

Deep within her cheek.

Breathe out,

The tide rolls out,

Its fingers pulling at the sand

Here beside you

I hear the ocean.

And inside your sleep,

I drift away.

A Distant Relative

The smell of rotting crab. That's what he remembers about Celia. They visited his mother's sister too often for everyone's tastes. Even for his mother. Even for Celia. His father flatly refused to put up with it, and every month he waited grim and angry in the van with the icy air blasting through the vents.
Holding his mother's hand tightly he would wrinkle his nose as a wall of sweat, mildew, and rotting crab meat sweltered over them; settling in the folds of their clothes and in their hair. Aunt Celia had a way of scaring the hair on his arm straight up. Sometimes it seemed she enjoyed seeing him squirm and look away. On other days she didn't even cast a glance at him, only yelling and screaming at his mother, throwing a frightening tantrum until her hands were white and shaking from clenching and twisting the sheets she languished upon. He told Reese beneath the monkey bars that his aunt was an alien from outer space. Reese's large nosed scrunched up and he looked scared as he had scurried off to join a game on the field. Aunt Celia certainly looked like an alien. Her skin looked plastic and shiny, and her hair clung to her scalp in limp strands. Her face was ugly and had weird purple splotches across it. Later in class Reese leaned over and asked softly if his parents were alien, or if he was part alien too, because he was related to one. He hadn't known what to answer. The next night his mother got a call from Reese's house. He heard his mother and father talking about it behind their bedroom door.

"Well of course he's going to say that," his father said hotly, "he's got eyes hasn't he? And you expose him to that lunatic every blasted month. Probably warping his brain."

His mother replied softly what she said every month and every visit,

"She's my sister, Jeffrey." her voice got even quieter,
"she's been feeling down lately, and ignoring her won't help anyone."

His father only got louder.

"Oh, she's been down for sure, she lays on that bed like she thinks the Earth has pinned her there. She wants the attention, and you sure dish it out, babying her like a mother hen."

What his parent's said interested him and he payed closer attention on the next trip down to his aunt's. He watched the way her eyes flickered around the room, and then focused waveringly on the corner of the room where the walls met the ceiling. She met his eyes and he immedialtey blinked down to look at his shoes. He curled his toes inside his sneakers and stared back.
Everything was quiet. Celia layed white and pale on her back, slowly she lowered her head onto the waiting pillow and closed her eyes. Her lips moved as if she was speaking but no words came out. His mother bent over her and held her hands, crying a little. It made his stomach twist when a grown-up cried; it was all wrong. He left the bedroom and sat on the dingy living room carpet, letting the smell of the room climb all over him. He thought about opening the front window but the fear of Celia rooted him to the spot. He imagined her waking suddenly and leaping around the room, tearing up the drapes and grinding her teeth, her purple face dripping sweat and eyes boring into his skull. So he sat on the grimy floor with the grimy smell until his mother was ready to leave.
That night he listened to the light underneath his parent's door, laying on his bed in the dark, A single streak of light spread across the sky, his eyes stayed on it until its upward arch dissapeared. He heard his mother crying, and imagined himself flying with that streak of light. A rocket ship returning home.

Friday, May 13, 2011

The Danger of Tea Time

I sit up with my gloves on,

Off-white dingy but with no holes.

I am with the Other Girls.

The conversation travels around the table,

Sit straight cross legs keep hands folded on lap.

Try to imitate the glossy veneer so prevalent,

Slippery like magazine covers I hold but do not open.

I slowly awake to a whisper in my ear;

I am the only one with gloves on,

Legs crossed, sitting straight, hands folded.

The only one who needs a glossy cover.

I awaken to a lag in the conversation,

To hear the clatter of a tea cup,

Shaking as I reach to set it down

On china.

Joy



The sunspots fall down the sky,

Through the peaceful

Non-intruding clouds.

They fall on me,

To my center,

To my core;

A dangerous place

I do not reach for.

The comma curves,

So dark and soft;

Down.

Its downward slide

Seeks up,

Capturing the curve,

It holds in the breath.

But on a cloudless day

Without a storm to

Buffer these winds,

That fly free;

My face is open to the moment.

Why is this aching stillness

So remembrant of sadness?

My joy;

So often do I find it

With feelings like remorse,

It fills me and I,

Wait,

For the catch of breath

Return.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

shaken petals



I wonder why this flower stayed


When all the other's left.


It must have seen the season's change


Yet it stared down icy death.


The tender bloom is layered ore'


With fresh white misted breath.


I wonder why this flower stayed,


when all the others left?

Brown Sugar: a poem lost and found again


Pure Light Brown Sugar

Hard Packed; Cracked

Like the desert ground.

Put on your clean oatmeal,

Heavy Sweet.

Wet Ocean Sand,

Sweet instead of salt.

Molasses.

Why can't we all be pure,

Cracked and Crumbly;

The gritty stuff we spill

Across the kitchen floor?

Old Stones


Two round stones,

Weathered on river bends;

I carry in my pocket,

like two comprable friends.


Beneath the stream they softened,

Until I came at dusk;

So smooth, I tender hold them,

So soft, so frail as dust.


The warm weight in my pockets,

Is lessened like time's sand;

We pass beneath a shaded tree,

A chill enters my hand.

I walked down where the waves have walked


I walked down where the waves have walked

When the tide was very low.

I walked across the rippled sand

And saw what was below.

The ocean's footprints left behind

Were scattered down the beach.

The battered limbs of broken crabs,

The orbs of jelly fish.

I never thought the ocean vain

She never hid her face;

But the waves will come and wash away

All trace of what I saw today.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Butterflies







Beneath the soft white pillow,


The glossy cover turned,


The creatures lie there waiting,


For the rains of night return.


There flutters pinned and helpless,


The black and feathered bird.


Too small to be a sparrow,


Too quiet to be heard.


The butterflies are tearless;


Just the lashes' soft dark dress,


Until the rotting bandage,


drips down the pillow's flesh.


And all the cares of day,


Are slowly drained away


She sleeps


She sleeps


She sleeps


On black and broken


Butterlfy wings.

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